Wednesday, August 31, 2005

The Awkward Silence



Oh, well, just when I thought I wouldnt really be pissed off about anything today, this had to happen.

Just so that everyone knows now and there are no more awkward silences, my girlfriend and I kinda fell out of our relationship sometime back. Cant really call her MY girlfriend right now cause she's with someone else, but trust me, thats not the pissing off part. I am happy for her and am sure glad she's happy doing what she is doing in life.

Anyways, getting back to the post. My folks and I share a very open relationship. I mean, they have no qualms about me seeing someone and they are like one of the first few people to know when I do start seeing anyone. I dont really have to tell them. They kinda already figure it out and stuff.

One thing though, when you break up with someone, for some odd reason, you dont find the courage to go and tell you parents about it. No matter how open they are about the issue. Call me a coward or whatever, I dont really mind it. But honestly, I just find it odd. I can tell all my friends about it, but I cant tell my parents. Its just a crappy feeling...

So I get back home today from work and I was sitting down in the hall and just talking to my mom who was all enthu about watching some of my edits on TV and feeling proud and all. Just then, she turns towards me and says "So, where's XYZ? Haven't seen her in a while and she doesnt even call or come home anymore". An awkward silence follows... I ponder over the option of lying to her, like I have done in the past just, but I decided to otherwise today and to put an end to this..

I dont blame my mom. I blame myself. But these frigging awkward situations piss me off. Moreso the silence. I finally found it in my heart to tell her today though. I am sure she'll tell my dad and it'll all be cool and no one will bring it up anymore, but thats not the point. These awkward situations are such a piss off .. Fuck, I cant even put it to words to remember about this someday down the line...
This sucks..

12 comments:

noodles said...

try listening to the sound of silence ...unless, of course, u wanna stay pissed

Dr. Pissed said...

Sounds of Silence as in the song or as a metaphor?
Eitherways, I think I need a good night's sleep to get over this.
Thanks though.
Cheers!

Penny Lane said...

The parents thing is funny... With great difficulty a couple of years ago I told them I was living with my boyfriend and a friend (all in separate rooms) and then my Dad visited and he got along quite well with the friend (and boyfriend). Now I live with boyfriend and another friend but I just don't feel like telling them that... they'll just ask too many questions and I don't feel like rocking the boat!

noodles said...

put it as a metaphor...hmmm..now tht u said it..listening to simon&garfunkel wont hurt either

Pink said...

Ya, that must have been pretty awkward. I like you, would probably just not tell anyone when things are over...

Rat said...

Well the upside is atleast you can have the ackward silences with your parents. Most ppl cant disuss these things at all.

dee iyer said...

you're too hard on your self , kiddo.
parents know.
They're like that.

Ganathra tells me you're ex girlfriend was quite a 'cat' .

Should I go ahead and tell him that he sucks and save you the trouble of typing that out.
Sorry if I seem insensitive. Didnt mean to.

Dr. Pissed said...

Kiddo?
hahaha

Vipul's cool man .. We used to be the Backbencher boys!

And I guess my ex-gf was a cat. She was cool..

Btw, pennylane, your lucky you get to live with your boyfriend. Must be fun

Noodles dude, SoS is sure cool a song..

Lavi, so you know how it feels eh. I guess some of us are like this only.

rat, heh my parents are cool. They atleast cracked jokes about it this morning

jax said...

Ditto here man. I could tell my parents openly when I was going around with this girl. But when we broke up and the phone calls stopped coming in, mom would ask me why I dont get her calls. I'd just lie my ass off, but could never tell them what happened. They knew it all the while I think, but never ever asked me if we broke up.

silverine said...

Awkward silences do piss you off and you feel like kicking yourself in the shin for getting into the situation in the first place.

Dr. Pissed said...

Oh I totally agree with you boss.. Its just way too awkward for anyone to handle it..
And Jax, guess I am not all that different afterall eh?

cows r still cool said...

she loves me, she loves me not, she loves me, she loves me not....

since others have expressed their sympathies to u, its time i rip u off. the reason y u r feelin awkward is that u r dyslexic and have problems with strafing. i think u need a doctor more than a lov life. get a good vet.

just adding my 2Re advice.